I think I’ve decided to do a Master’s in France starting this fall. I should be able to start with an M2 and just do one year of coursework and then write my mémoire. It will be extremely cheap compared to North American tuition, and I’ll have a research paper in French to bolster my PhD applications to Canadian universities whenever we decide to head there. I should have plenty of free time to work on my degree considering that I only work 13 or so hours a week during the 12 week semesters. And we’re planning to move closer to the university this summer so I don’t have a 40 minute drive everyday.
I still need to talk to the professors and make sure I can start with the M2… but I think it’s (almost) decided. I just like having a definite plan about the future. Not knowing what will happen at the end of 2010 is a little unsettling to me. I know we’re barely into 2009, but I always look ahead. I always need to be prepared, especially financially.
And I am a little tired of feeling like life here is temporary. I resist making close friends, or buying things for the apartment, because I don’t want to say goodbye and get rid of all those things when we leave. And how many books do I still have in Michigan? Should I attempt to bring the rest of my stuff here, or leave it there for when/if we move to Canada?
For years I thought it didn’t really matter where I lived, as long as I was able to travel when I wanted to. I need to be able to go to Michigan for Christmas, and visit Montreal in the summer, and explore other places I’ve never been before. But then I remember how much I hate the act of traveling (well, flying) and how wonderful it is to just get in the car and drive somewhere. And if Michigan and Montreal are the places I want to return to most, I need to be on the right continent first.
Lately I suppose I’ve just felt restless and helpless because I can’t make things happen right now. We have to wait until spring to see what’s going to happen with David’s job. We have to wait until summer to move. I have to wait until fall to start my Master’s. I have to wait until 2010 before I’ll have any chance of knowing where we’ll end up for good.